my WoDERful yet horriblE Life

christmas

2006-12-21T11:06:00.000+08:00

Welll...end of the Year...Weeeeeee....one year have passed and this year aint such a good year yea....haha....gosh..so many things have happened..and generally, they are alll bad...but nvm..its e end of the year...dun really have a christmas party this year..Quiet christmas?..haha...

august baby

2006-10-17T21:42:00.000+08:00

Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds onattention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful.Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "everything's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing.Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted.Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves tobe loved. Hates studying. in need of "thatsomeone". Longs for freedom. Rebellious whenwithheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain"caring. Always a suspect. Playful.Mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone.stubborn. curious. Independent. Strong willed. Afighter

its over

2006-09-23T00:50:00.000+08:00

Oh man...im seriously sad..........my attaachment is over...and yes..its true..its true...its over....im gona miss every1...every single one....and im sorry lay nah for all e disrepectful things i have done...i still love u....and my bosss winnie...thanks for treatin me to dinner twice....and being such a nice person in everyway u can....i know i like to talk shit.and thanks for ur advice...i will keep that in mind........MWWW!!!...haha..cute girl whu is atotech's noob...but every noob becomes a pro some day......ur gona make it..see ya in 1 mth..and tellin me u have confirmed.....ur gona do it...and russellll...im sure we can be really gd friends yea...haha....lets see hw things go...and jefff...ai yo yo...MOFO to e max...but harmless chap..still love ya dude...and i will nv ever forget...Azman and Asli....u inspired me to greater heights....i will keep wat u say in mind and work hard..i swear to god to fufill wat i said once....and make a difference......Thanks for everythin guys....!! seriously...thanks!!!....im gona miss every single 1 of u.......

sunday morning gd morning

2006-09-17T11:21:00.000+08:00

yoyoyo..its sunday....weeee...tml's monday..weeee....boo...hahah..ben si le..got so many things to do at work....and and and...next week is suppose to be my last week of work man.......booohooohooo.......and i extended 2 weeks..anw..i need e money seriously..so ive got to work...hard.......!!!!....
im finally starting on my major project...hahah....got so many things to do..i better work hard man..or nt im gona die..somemore i extend for 2 weeks..really gg man...hahahha..i hope they give me some time when im workin to do project man...hahaha..b oohoooh..hooo...

oh man oh man...

2006-09-12T20:13:00.000+08:00

soon attachment is over..hahahha..wah seh fast man....this also means its e end of poly life...and true enough in poly....like every1 says....e pple sucks...haaa...i do understand dudes...haha..anw...........so much have happened in this period...so many people changed...so many things have happen..attachment taught me a great deal man....i hate to say this....but i might misss e pple there.every1 execpt 1.....u shld know...u SLACKER...muahaha.....so nw e question..which direction wld u like to head in life.......where r u gona be 10 yrs frm nw man.....haha.....maybe next time when i see my colleague.....they r like retiring....haha....well...many pple inspired me there.....and many things inspired me.....im gona work hard.....and thanks for all those REAL nice friends whu have been with me through these tough time.....Those buggers whu like to pretend to be nice....get a life bitches....(e J n e D)...well..left last sem le..so gona have as much fun as possible..and a shout out to all those whu read blogs...u guys are cool..dunno hw u guys spare so much time..and i know wat..my blog still sucks....haha......and and and..last of all..i saw my supervisor fill my appraisial..haha..wat do u think i will get..most prob 4 ba......haha...i shld get 5 man..for my effort....boohoo.....
Pts to ponder: wats ur true purpose of doin smt. anythin at all.wats ur true purpose.

look ard

2006-09-09T09:56:00.000+08:00

welll.......august was realll goood...butttt...hahaa.....sept...is kinda bad..gona extend 2 weeks with my company.......or nt they really ggg...hahaha...finally..mr wong came to my company and brought me gd news....i finally changed my elective..and can escapse that monster that always bug me...hahha....he is nice la..just that i dun really like him....hahaha......anw...suppose to have 2 weeks left....but nw..i have 4 weeks left...Wwwweeeeee....well..have a little accident that cost me hell man..but nvm..its a gd experience....why do every1 makes it sound like a sin...hahaha...and come on pple.....look ard...u can see whu r ur real friends n whu's nt.....its v clearly define...time n time again..i see them...hanging ard pretending..sometimes shld just let go...wat will come..will come.....haha..murphy's law...whatever will go wrong..will go wrong.....what ever will not go wrong..will still go wrong....haaha...ROFL..thats damn true man.....well once again....i still wana meet up with old friends....i miss my lao jie..........hahaha..im gona fly to aus to see HErrrr....muahahah.....Save more money..save more money........

Yoyo

2006-08-21T10:43:00.000+08:00

Been a while since i blog yea...welllllllllll......lets see.i guess i have abour 5 weeks left for my attachment..time pass so fast..im loving it man..let it be over........Well nw kinda focus with my goals.met up with e directors on friday for a drink and some pool..well it went well into e late nite. but surprisingly i saw an old gd friend. i miss ya. hope ya gona be fine yea.

My Mp is screwed man......but im gona buck up yea..hahah.i always say that.....anw...my dad's company moved to tuas...YAY..! might always have a ride home..hahaa.......Yin is goin to leave atotech le...haa....gona miss her too..

Well.i've learn alot during the past few weeks....Been readin alot hope can keep it up. haa. i nv have e passion for reading...

I hope my tuition kid pass his maths....thats my goal man...he aint gona be a loser.....

And e greatest thing of all..my lao jie is back!!!! i misss her !!!! so much!! hahaha...well for a few days...when my sis pop back...e look on my parents face can really stand a chance with the mastercard ads...'PRICELESS' haha..mum was kinda piss..but my dad was so happy...im sure he is also smiling when he is sleepin. haha....Here comes my mum with chrysatermum tea..i dunno hw to spell la...haaa.....And e new david tao CD is good...i heard jays is gona release a CD soon..

ANw...i really hope i get to change my elective..but anyhw if i dun get it..its okay..learning somethin new is good..hahahah and freak..i went to play ball on sat and i sprain my little toe...nw it looks like e small taiwan sausage u can get AT NTUC...haaaa.....ben si le......

Anw...August is gona be a good month..my birthday is coming......its really gona be a good month man......and..shout out to all my peeps whu reads my blog but nv meet up with me..i miss u guys...so contact me yea....

well.hws life..8th week

2006-07-29T08:56:00.000+08:00

hahaha..its e 8th week nw..means im half way to go....chiong...!!! its gona be over soon.i realise i look like a panda....my dark rings r quite bad...anw..my sister is fine.i was too worried.hahaa...anw..aspire to start my biz!!!..muahaa..i will make it man...i will..lol......anw...work is being very routine.still wana meet up with more friends!! yay!

im gona miss u so so much

2006-07-15T22:51:00.000+08:00

im gona misss u.....misss uuuuuuuu.....uuuu!!.......plsss..take care of urself..ur gona fly so far away.....im like so damn worried about u........i will nt be there for u anymore.to tk care of u anymore or protect u.....so pls..take care of urself......plsssssss......god..plsss..take care of her for me......

my vespa dream

2006-07-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

haaa.my LX 150...my dreammmmmm....oh man.to be or nt to be that is the question.just like.to learn or nt to learn.well..my dream scooter man......already dreaming of hw im gona design it...haa..anww.......my kid is cool..he gona be a smart 1....im gona put in all my efoort yea.....!..well.work still sucks.but cool thing is.10 more weeks baby.
still wana meet up with more of my friends...!.

jaded

2006-07-08T23:44:00.000+08:00

thinkin about e next time makes me feel numb..nt anticipating e outcome.yet enjoyin e process....haa..well....i hope....
really keen in learning somethin my parents aint gona let me learn...but..wth.!...maybe i shall be rebellious for once..haa.....
Ipod video.?.....love ipod.but its ex....hoping to get 1 soon...
work is as bad.kinda hate it
dedicated my time for my kid.teachin him hw to improve.
learning to be a better man.
haven been meetin up with any1.kinda sad
real tired at work and everyday.
my sis is leaving...and soon will be me.whu gona miss me if im gone for gd.haa.

well..4th week

2006-07-01T22:06:00.000+08:00

its e end of the 4th week..!! hahah..coollll..and HIIiiiiii JANE!!! ur free to read my blog!!!....cooolllll.....hahaha..anw.....chat up sooon yea.sms or wat....

Okay back to hell......yea..nw.....life is CMi man.....let me list down the shits about mt attachment
1.low pay
2.overwork
3.supervisor leaving(gona miss her)
4.darn far
5.no MAJOR PROJECT
6.WTF!!!
and..sigh..my sec sch friends are seriously no where to be found..i miss them loads....hmm.thinkin about takin some exams so i maybe can go uni...
cool thing is....ive got...........a tuition kid..i dunno e pay..i dunno hw he looks like..its so exciting..!!...but i got to do it every thurs..that sucks....hahaha.....

1st week

2006-06-11T12:02:00.000+08:00

well.1st week is so tough man...waking up so early..travelling so far....to my atotech asia pacific.but watever doesent kills me makes me stronger.luckily ive got 2 kinda nice colleague.....quite nice to chat with them anw...learning alot of stuff..i didnt know chem eng can be so harzardous....maybe thats why their pay is so high... anw...its kinda hrd to succeed in this line..which makes me think of my futture.....got so much to think about nw...back to my biz soon.....kinda low profit...but still new some to survive.got to pay for driving soon...anw.....work aint easy la....sigh......

wanted to meet up with friends..but somehw or rather it didnt work this week......anw...no fate ba...myabe because next week is gona be so tough..thats why....im suppose to rest at home..

world cup fever..cant watch though..lots to do at work...sigh...work is takin a toll on me...

i realise hw tough life is

2006-06-06T22:07:00.000+08:00

ive just started attachment..and trust me....its really bad.....nv work so hard in my life before..and its really nt easy........workin at tuas.....sigh..many things to learn...gettin bullied.....tough....life is tough...but im gona try my best to make it....realise e joy of studyin....

well...driving test aint easy...im gona try it again soon ba....till then yea.!

still think about moto....haha..seriously....anw.....kinda broke nw..got to help my buddies tide over e crisis....

oh yea

2006-05-30T11:10:00.000+08:00

6 weeks of CPTC gone....real fast eh..so many things happen there...bee hoon..snatchin and bookin of seats...playin soccer..bball..ping pong....sleep in lecturees....shift work...chi chess...making more new friends frm other klasses....any many many more.....haha.w.on derful memories i wld keep..come to think of it my 3 yrs of poly is coming to an end..and i guess i will realy miss my friends i made in poly.... all of them..maybe nw..we shld spent more time together.and get more wonderful memories...haha..kenneth the lao fu zi. dennis e target.candice e man.si wei e mickey.horng ping e scrouge.henry e small boy.

yday sentosa was fun......played so many bo liao ggames..and the oil frm the ships came it and it almost ruin our day.wat is sucky is we cant jump e jetty again..wtf man.....and siloso becomes 2nd best. palawan have taken over man....anw we still stayed in siloso.and my volley ball is improvin..even after 1 yr without any training...haha..sentosa changed so much..okay call me a mountain tortise.but its true ma...hahah

This is is my last week of holidays....and im gona miss it so so much..cause i will be going to tuas west....hahah.....omg..its damn far la..like goin to JB everyday....sigh...anw...seems like a test to me eh...watever that doesnt kill u..makees u stronger..........

Tonight is bbq day..but hw am i gona bbq..when im sun burnt.its gona hurt reall bad.....hahah...and its tues...may time pass like a tortise.....yay.......

19th may

2006-05-07T16:19:00.000+08:00

lol.....resist the temptation......etc etc etc.......will luck be with me this time?...haha..shall see..soon man..another 12 more days den its my TP.......kinda lookin forward...sch is gd.last week of 5.30....haha..ren..! long weekend coming.time to meet up with old friends..cheers.

all is cool

2006-04-25T21:32:00.000+08:00

yea baby..last misunderstanding.! gone...but maybe still have many that im nt aware of.anw its cool! hoho....well TP coming again...may 19th....will i fail again?..hoho..we shall see.......anw..sch is SOOoo gd...everyday waking up at these timings....so gd man.....anw...soon it will be over....hahah......test tml....muggin time.....

changing a habit

2006-04-22T19:37:00.000+08:00

virgo.egoistic.care too much about wat people says.etc etc etc.good thing?.or bad thing?. i dunno.
i once read a book sayin u shld step out of ur comfort zone and try new things so u can try grow.
the most difficult thing is to try to start.however, its really difficult to fufill this 2 things....
not everybody is given a second chance.however when give cherish it.nw presently im presented with 2 second chance.however its nt easy to face it when u have failed the first time round.esp when u care about it so much cherish it so much and yet u fail so bad. hw r u gona have the courage to face it again.can i do it this time? the fear of failure have always been around. and yet i cant overcome it.failure arent it.a failure that fears to fail.ROFL.

wee.!

2006-04-20T22:08:00.000+08:00

life sucks....6.15 mon.tues 610.wed 6.thurs 5.44. and soon!!!1 it will be 5.30.fuck man...i dun wake up so early..nt even to go to sch in primary sch..!!!gosh this sucks man...goin to that nonsense island to breathe in smoke and sleep in lectures........my god....insanity...6 weeks man...!
anw..saw some1 i really hope will still be friends with me.we been through so much and know each other for sometime.i really hope to be friends with u again.
and and and..i have no life!
lets pray for my 2nd Tp..and yes i failed the first 1..horribly...hahaha....its dum....but nvm...i can make it this time im sure.....

past present future

2006-04-09T03:18:00.000+08:00

if u nv get over the past and live ur life in the present den u will nv have a furture. so no matter wat always cherish whu is beside u.whu carea about u.and whu u care about alot.....it aint easy to know some1.and its even harder to love some1.
Well confidence?.gettin over the fear of failure.it aint easy.
damn shag after work.16 hours man..wohooo.....need money la....poor people work hard...haha..
last week of holidays.next time i ever have holiday is when i await my jail sentence of 2 years to serve my country.haha..i was wonderin.after 3 yrs of poly whu will still b my friend?...maybe sec sch friends are always closer to me.

failed

2006-04-07T16:21:00.000+08:00

failure is worst den death of speakin in front of people is worst than death..well i dunno..but i sure fear to fail and i did...i listened too much to wat pple say and i might be lacking a little luck thats why i failed....but anw whu can i blame except myself and i know ive got to try my best the next time rd...hwever sayin is much easier than doin eh...haha..well well..its all in the mind man....so this holiday is coming to an end..and say i have vbeen wasting my life away aint it......but anw..will it be better when i start goin for attachment"?...hmmm..whu noes....huray candice pass he driving le..! and kenny too..!.....
lets hope all goes well for me......lookin forward for making up for my stupid mistake.......

when nothing is good enough

2006-03-13T12:52:00.000+08:00

well..10 days man...10 days........!!!!!!..hahaa....the disappointment vs the joy....the effoort i have put in is much much more than anythin any1 can ever imagine. i pray.for once.just once.Well u have fufilled ur part of the deal.u can have anythin nw.

wohoo

2006-01-31T13:27:00.000+08:00

wah...i realise my blogskin is damn gross..haha...cant stand it myself..anw..CNY is here...and shit..so little ang bao..hw to cover my driving...this means must work more le...haha...anw...wana wish all those of my friends i nv wish a happy chinese new year...booked my driving test date..so frm nw till then..its time to pray..exams is coming..and i will be so freakin bz.....anw..this yr..i wana...meet up with more old friends man....so many gd friends.....all became just mere Acquaintances...anw..thanks jia min whu always read my blog... we will always be pals yea... although we seldom or never meet up..hahah..and jac..a few weeks more. and ur dream will come true..hang in there yea...and....i think they purposely make u be the 1 that might get elimanted..maybe because ya get the most votes..so wana let ya fans no..'gosh we r nt voting enough' marketing plan...haha....
And 1 thing..this blog...is somethin i use to type out all my frustration sadness and etc..so u see when i seldom blog...means im seldom sad..nt the always sad guy yea..haha......only when times i miss people whu mean alot to me..den i will blog....or when the day is really bad bad bad.....
And why are the world full of bitches...haaa...stay away.....!

times when u doubt urself

2005-12-31T02:49:00.000+08:00

once again...problems are keepin me awake..haha..no surprise eh..... anw..loads of problems man...first of all...was the term test...it sucked so bad...im afriad i will fail...haha....but..i think i passed all......lukcy though...i promise to study harder but dun think this is gona happen....hmm..i will try my best.... :) second thing.....DRIVING..seriously..i doubt myself....whether i have the talent to drive or nt..and it seems like i dun have...haha....drivin means alot to me...as i see it as a milestone...to cross over.....conquer...courage, confidence and concentration is all i need.....but it seems like...im lackin in almost alll......sigh sigh...i need to stand up to these challenges man.....!! anw....sometimes i wonder if the instructor suck or is it just me..but i think...its me ba..the scoldin frm the instructor can be real de moralising.....sigh sigh....but i know..for my own good..got to step up to this man.!! haha,.....third problem...finally....i got close with dennis my best friend again..however, the problem is charlyn...anw..i decided to stay away again.because all the problems started when we got closer again..i think she feels threaten or wat..anw..we are nt gona be friends anymore...guess is because of the shit i said...but nvm......its okay.........
well these problems may seem minor to many...but i think this is a whole big deal to me man...sigh....i hope the new yr will be a better one... :)

blog..1 mth

2005-12-05T02:55:00.000+08:00

3am..cant sleep again..always when i cant seem to fall asleep den i will start bloggin. hmm...so far..loads have happen...takin driving which is takin part of my time and my studies is sort of affected. had these chalet last week.although i skipped sch, i had loads of fun with the kids man...haha...anw...ruben is so cute...but too bad...his parents are gettin a divorce...i feel sad for him man..haiz.....such a sweetie..and his heart is gona be broken..can totally understand hw he feels...been thinkin about those pessimist friends that i have..always let their emotions run their actions...kinda irritatiin man..... when will they grow up..gotta tolerate them all the time.....sigh..anw..i realise no1 is perfect and there are loads of short coming in many people..the thing is hw we deal with it..got to have an open mind to those narrow minded souls eh...or will end up being real sad.... so much have happen this yr man.... new jobs...new experiences...driving..meetin up with old pals...amanda finish her A levels finally..jac in star idol..all my friends man..moving fast.. in their life..really happy for them...guess this blog is 1 yr plus old le..and so much have happen during this one year..guess wat christmas is comin le..been thinkin wat prezzie to buy again..haha..so fun..love this season....anw..got 1st for bball....and during that day...when i saw the sch team training..i realise i nv regreted my decision of nt joining them....dun really think they will go far...and their attitude sucks..dun like the coach..still miss mr teo so much man..my mentor...my teacher and me and ah seng always say....our second father...haha..always think of those days when we all use to play ball and we all were so close to each other....hahah....met up with wt..and saw shun wei recenlty..made me think of mandy..haha..nt exactly recently but quite sometime ago..they went to hk man...lucky people..well my dream is to go with the 1 i love to hk..its so darn fun..but got to wait and dream man..haha..well..its just a dream...haha......anw..been some time since i meet up with daniel..and ian..my all time besties...haha........well..got to make an effort to do so soon man.... holidays and exams are approaching...damn damn damn..so quick..gona mid term le....and den..attachment..poly life is gona end in a flash..that sucks man.....army..i dread u...shooo!!....and....wheres SM man..v long nv meet him for dota sessions le...hmm..the feeling of being left out kinda sucks eh...but nvm..thats the prob when u have too many groups of man..from experience, i realise ttat..the closer u get with pple..the more they tend to change and be their true self....and den..its either u get really disgusted....and shun then away..or u tolerate them..dne u become life long frienss...hmm..points to ponder..however, the characteristics is....when u meet new pple..they are always..ALWAYS nice intially......and another thing...only those whu stand by u when ur down are truelly friends..nt those whu come to u when ur up and rising...haha.... anw..this year been quite quiet and normal....peaceful i reckon..tranquilty is damn gd... nw i wana thank the lord for blessin me with the inner peace i have and the lessons he have taught me all these whiles..all the ups.,...and the down..bless u....life taught me quite a bit..but i reckon there are loads more to learn...gona be a change person..for the better....! still lookin for goal..aspirations...and many more...time to set my new year's resolution soon......!!! hehe.....meet the target of most of those i set last year..and finally....i sincerly hope and pray.. amanda the greatest to pass her A's and go to the uni..!!!!! jac will win and go as far as possible in the star idol, to finally fufill her childhood dreams~!

bloggin

2005-11-06T13:08:00.000+08:00

beeen a long long time since i last blog..loads have happen this month...once again life taught me more things....when jac got into the ming xin ou xiang finals, is a wake up call for me too. its tellin me to buck up and search for my goal rather than standin ard..and i hope she wins as finally she will fufill her dreamn.workin taught me..hw hard isit to earn money...team work..made alot of new friends and hw hard life is...

wish

2005-10-04T00:45:00.000+08:00

i will exchange my happiness for urs...i swear...a few more years of lonliness means nth.....i rather u stay together.ans my prayer lord.pls.

birthday

2005-08-29T16:48:00.000+08:00

a boring day man.....have exams and stuf..well this entry is about the prediction i made.the faith i had.which turned to denial...haaa..i always believe there was a chance and everythin is meant to be.but today, i was proved wrong.but its okay. 29th aug.3 yrs and 3 months ago.was the day. i cld call u mine.but.its all over.

Thanks to all the peeps whu are attendin the celebration tmr...and their best wishes...it means alot......love u guys..

when everythin is about fate

2005-08-15T20:05:00.000+08:00

u cant run.nor u cant hide.nth u can do about it. if its urs.i will be...sigh.

3 test tmr..route to insanity...no time for anythin..no time to lose.....need to study so much stuff in so little time....

bloggin

2005-08-12T00:38:00.000+08:00

today is my lius's bday...haa..went to play lan..and shop in town..for like 9 hrs...its insane....den i found out...or realise..hw impt money is.....damn sian....but..this made me..wana strive hard again...social life is back in order..just one last thing is nt settled..!!...but..i will be resolved in time to come....i coming back to my realitly le....!!.....

A story.i read.

2005-08-11T12:05:00.000+08:00

one yr ago.i made a bet with god.they say if u luv somebody.u will set her free.and if she dun come back.den its nt meant to be.i always believe it was fated.soon.i will be proved wrong.for 3 yrs and 3 months.many memories were shared.bball.den mos burger.den was the only movie ever watched together.followed by a sad break up.den was the time.when she was down.and i nv had the chance to be there.finaly.we met again.and played bball.haa.studied.pool.spent so much time together.and all of a sudden.all was gone.den.again.saw her on e street(as predicted).den we tolked.met up for supper.send her to work.couple of times.walked her home couple of times.talked alot.shared alot.but one mistake.a bet.and all was gone once again.den came the time again.i sat and watch her feel sad and got hurt.felt helpless.this 3 yrs and 3 months.had so many memories.i will keep em.thanks.

Goodbye my lover-james blunt

2005-07-24T20:10:00.000+08:00

Did I disappoint you or let you down? Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown? 'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun, Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won. So I took what's mine by eternal right. Took your soul out into the night. It may be over but it won't stop there, I am here for you if you'd only care. You touched my heart you touched my soul. You changed my life and all my goals. And love is blind and that I knew when, My heart was blinded by you. I've kissed your lips and held your head. Shared your dreams and shared your bed. I know you well, I know your smell. I've been addicted to you. Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me. X2

I am a dreamer but when I wake, You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take. And as you move on, remember me, Remember us and all we used to be I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile. I've watched you sleeping for a while. I'd be the father of your child. I'd spend a lifetime with you. I know your fears and you know mine. We've had our doubts but now we're fine, And I love you, I swear that's true. I cannot live without you. Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me. X2 And I still hold your hand in mine. In mine when I'm asleep. And I will bear my soul in time, When I'm kneeling at your feet. Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me. I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow. I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Well.this few months is teeachin me somethin.

2005-07-24T19:58:00.000+08:00

this few months have been teachin me hw to be a loser.i cant simply think of anythin that is goin right.....sigh.. i lost my fav watch....lost my fav cap....lost my four leave clover...lost so many things......nvm...those are just materials stuff....all of a sudden...my studies is just average....my social life is a total sucide. gettin sick of DOTA. lost the desire to be the best in bball. or rather strive to be the best. lets nt get to the part of my love life.its been a wreak since i can last remember. this few weeks have been exceptionally bad..played mj lose money.bet soccer lose money. play bball lose.play pool lose.play punch also lose.play dota get owned.damn. my grp of friends which i was so close with just split up and went their own ways.sigh. all i can say is all the best guys...i cant remember anythin that is positive anymore.but i know its just a rough period and i gt to hang in there.
just when i thought things are gettin better.

nice place

2005-07-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

today went to this place..at selegie..wow..was really impressive.,...such a nice play to play pool and drink..nice environment etc..nice play to hang out..the drinks there are really reasonable hwever the pool is kinda over the limit yea..damn ex...haa....mum is gettin better le..yay..! finally man....life have been really screwed up without her ard.....haa......im gona try again to study hard to work my way to uni if possible.i really want to..haiz...but...hmmm.....alw2ays no determination..give in to play too easily....sigh....hmmmm....finally i decided to play for a competition..but guess wat...so unforturnate....im nt eligible to play...haa.....damn it......'

saw somethin really sad today..some ger was bullied by a guy in public today..he bloody hell snatch her things away....and ran....all i cld do was watch..this really shows the cowardness of nt only me but singaporeans man.....sigh....wat kind of society is this!?!?!?!?!...haaa......gettin frm bad to worst man.....

Ps. ur nv there when i need u.sigh

ice

2005-07-17T23:12:00.000+08:00

Everythin is just like a cube of ice.once it melts.it will nv be the same again

damn sch.! tmr is e day i will recieve my results.and i know.im screwed.

damn sian.

2005-07-16T13:07:00.000+08:00

hmm..mummy is sick....sigh......she in e hospital nw..for dengue...sigh..without her.in e hse....so many things i got to do..lanz really miss her...he went to look for her in e middle of the night at 5a.m. thats why i woke up.was v disappointed with e self-centredness...got so many project to do man.....ai ya...damn sian...lack of sleep...so much work to do....and still have to go hospital later..kor u better come back soon ya...u ass..
Why isnt it recovering.?...sigh.

my resentment.

2005-07-15T11:45:00.000+08:00

damn it....why must it be me...its damn unfair...among the 3 of us..i got it..yet i spend e most time lookin after it...nw...it is slowly eating me inside...eating the confidenc i used to have..is this a test or a retribution to me...i've been makin the effort..but theres no improvement..why...this is unfair man..sigh..i know this road to healing, is gona be a long and tedious one....but day by day..its eatin me inside..driving me insane.....can u make it go away....sigh....

buried under so many freakin projects which i dun have a clue on hw or wat to do....sigh...so much to do...in so little time..this is an insane course..thing is..i thought it was my interest..however, i was proved wrong time and time again....sigh.....why will e furture be like i will nv know..but i just got to hang in there and grad with a dipl...dun wana givbe up half way..im almost there..!!

its gona be julian's the great bday soon..yay..but celebration might be canceld dued to term test 2...hw sad...sigh...

finally.

2005-07-11T12:02:00.000+08:00

finally..today..i can go blading.. damn......its been a while man....really love e feeling of blading..haha....oh man..tmr goin sch for some bullshit...i must think of an intelligent excuse so i can escape....but my concisence will always come back and tell me to go.....sigh.....hmmm..we will see..

term test over

2005-07-09T01:04:00.000+08:00

bloody hell..i got a paper moderm ar..so slow...3 hrs le..haven dl finish my songs...ZZz...haha...omg..its so late,...for e past week..been sleepin less than 5 hrs a day....im crazy le...damn...went to play ball today...think i might go try for e team..but still no confidence..sigh...hmmm...term test is screwed again..omg...hai hai hai....but nvm la..let me slack a while...i musts tart studyin again soon......

eve of exams..

2005-07-01T16:49:00.000+08:00

today is 3 days before exams...immmm so stress...tired..jaded...sigh...i need a break...den today...i recieve the news..tp is goin have bball selection..but i dun think im up to it man..sobz....haiz...hmmm..wheres e confidence i used to have....bball was my life once...e love of my life..yet nw....i dun even have e confidence to go for selection..wat a loser man...sigh...so much work to do...in so little time...jaded man...sigh sigh sigh.......

route to insainty.

2005-06-28T20:45:00.000+08:00

this kinda sucks yea...haa...why do iw always bitch about unhappy times in situation like this...DOTA is e root to my failure..but its just so addictive...oh man..oh man...........i got loads of work to do..catch up..i've just finish jap test and presentation.and guess wat.....im gona fail le..once again..u fail.....haa..... ZZzzz.......maybe i shld uninstall dota...HMmmmmmmmm...haaa.....
4 days to do e impossbile....
quotes:
its nt about me not caring about anythin.its because if i cared about anythin, i wld have to care about everythin.
lyrics:
i know they say if u love somebody, u will set them free.but its just so hard to do.cause im still in luv with u. i know they say if she dun come back again,that its nt meant to be............lalalala...
pts to ponder:
do u believe in fate?. do u?. do u?.
Told ya dennis and charlyn are meant to be.
Regrets:
i had a chance to play in a competition once again.however, i was so stubborn to hold on to the promise i made. to nv play ball again. and nw, they cld have won with me.(nt saying im gd).
Wish:
i wish it wld recover quickly as the pychological pain its bringing upon me is really unbearable.
Trying to hard:
To believe in something nt true.
Cant bear to:
let u go. im selfish.u mean alot to me.
a promise:
nv to hurt u.
a memory:
i really miss u alot.isit fate.?

sch?

2005-06-04T10:51:00.000+08:00

sch sucks big time..i hate sch..i dislike sch...so many things new that i got to study..no chance of having a brek...dun even have tome to go and work out..been considerin on whether shld we do the hauted hse....really tryin to lead a balance life..however just got no time..loads of pple i need to meet up with..catch up with..however just dun have e time. jac bday just passed...i remember we used to always meet up when its each other's bday..hwever this yr....no more..saw her in sch and it amazes me hw friends..gd friends..long time friends..once more than friends..cld nt become strangers?.....Sigh..i find it a pity....hmmm......

new pts to ponder..wahaha

2005-05-17T15:42:00.000+08:00

okay..once again..is about gers..lets see......why when they r upset..they wld like to keep quiet and nt every1 know wassup...if they like u...they will nv admit it...they will nv let u into their feelings and just let u keep guessin....and another sad truth is...guys are nt e only bitchy thing on earth..gers are too....like they all..two time..keep guys hanging in the air....why cant u just decide on 1....always let every1 gueess wat ur thinkin....another thing is hw self centred some pple are....just care about their feelings....u know the thing about gers is..when they make a wrong decision and realise ur e better one...they come back to u.....but at that pt of time....wld u think any1 wants u backs...e truth about guys is..they are creatures with pride...they can live without gers....but they cannot live with the humilation u once brought to them and take u back once again....

questions

2005-05-16T12:56:00.000+08:00

theres a question that is always on my mind which i have no ans.....will u wana be with the person u luv..or the person whu luv u...i always feel...being with some1 whu u luv is like an emotional roller coaster....u go up...when she tells u she loves u and hw much u mean to her....but u come crashin down when she ignores u etc etc etc..however, being with the person u love is generally like a smooth trip......sometimes u go up...but seldom u go down....no matter wat happens....so question is..will u wan to lead ur live with ur sense of well-being or feel e adrenaline of a roller coaster realtionship......hmmmm...and sometimes during a r/s, there is always a side whu is more emotionally attached to the other....so...will u wana be the one whu is more emotionally attached?....why cant there be a balanced??.....and another ironic thing about this world is the person u love will not like u...even if he/she does, there will be 1 million obstacles in front of u guys...and somehw or rather u will never be together....so is this a test or wat.....
this are really points to ponder over eh.........

back..

2005-05-15T22:08:00.000+08:00

okay.....m'sia was okay..however cld be much better..left that place with loads of regrets..but i promise i will be back soon.....hmmmm.......yea...and end is always e start of all beginings......so the end of my holidays is e start of a new sem.....man...its be a while yea......7 weeks of sittin on my arse........and nw......question is am i fully recharged to face the new sem.....hmm....i wonder......okay...mountbatten is a goner team...so no pt ponderin on wat i can do about it...question is shld i quit of shld i stay...just 1 week left to e new sem......all e stuff are fine...but..just love drought eh....been a while since e word 'love' came up....but watever....there still a longway to go......jay's concert songs are nice..as well as tao ze..so thanks jian ming for sending all of them to me.....so 1 week left...gona make e best out of it..

its been a while...

2005-05-07T22:29:00.000+08:00

yooo......haa...today was quite nice..eve of mothers day..wanted to go get a present..however...decided to give mummy some money to buy a handbag..dad wouldnt be home to celebrate mothers day...sigh sigh...kinda miss that old man..haa.but cool thing is..he will be back on tues...haa.went to play ball today..was really good...oh man.....e feeling of greatness......damn....i really wana play ball again...haa..but..sianz..too bad...
goin to malaysia on mon....dunno when i will be back sia..but i hope it will be fun.i really hope.....

Blogging

2005-05-03T03:04:00.000+08:00

It ends on 29/8/05..haha..e end of a fairy tale...its been such a long time since i last blog...so many things have happen..like gettin all C for exams..which i passed...heh....and left 3 more weeks till everythin starts....been readin alot wana enrich myself...v tired nw but realyy cant get to sleep...haha..silly eh....hmmm... i miss quite a no. of pple nw...all those that once means so much to me..been wonderin..whether i shld go to Kl or wat..haaa..money is always a problem..so irritatin...hmmm..this sem passed fairly quickly....so many things have happen..like all my friends are gettin attached and keep askin me when isit my turn...i guess it will never be....life have been kind to me..and i really appreciate everythin now..like amanda whu is my pillar of support...my friends...horng ping and gang....and my family....life have thought me so much these few years esp...but i know there are still so many things to learn..i believe i will learn more in time to come. parents have been considerin on migrating..which sounds like a real good idea...actually kinda jaded...

reflections

2005-02-15T18:40:00.000+08:00

its been a while since i blog yea...haa..guess no1 really bothers to read though./....hahah..loads of things have happen yea...so many shits......like failing my pipc which i stay up e whole of vday to study for.....hahaha...sianz...guess i really suck when it comes to test yea...hahah.......exams are coming soon...v soon...3 weeks i guess...no time to slack eh..but nw have to really finish up all my projects...hahah....sianz......hmmm......and good news...all my friends are gettin attached le wor..wahahah......cool man..i really hope they all do...and nw..left me all alone..hahah..whu am i gona ask out next time..hahahah....and i've got to meet up with kai ian..andd my other bunch of friends..been so busy with my own stuff......

strAre Fear in e eye

2005-01-30T03:30:00.000+08:00

was wonderin....hw many of u dare to stare fear in e eye...i think i dun dare..but i wana test myself....hw..willl find out tmr.....darn..its been a while since i blog..sigh...so many things happen which i wana forget....hw to ever make ur life so busy that u will forget about everythin....hmmmmmmmm *scratch.......sch startin again...gona stay up for e last nite of e remainin holidays...been so hack care towards so many stuff..hahahahz......sian.. i wana go bladin.....sentosa...play ball...soccer...baseball....runnning...swimming..so many freakin things..buti dun have e bloody time...hmmm...it just sucks....

a Thought:im confident i will get play out in e end.

things to do

2005-01-09T05:18:00.000+08:00

things to do!
1. cope with e set-back of 4 tests
2. CSAS project
3. Term test
4. CSAS2
5. OC2
6. AM
7. Principles of entrepreneur ship
8. human health
9.PIPC
10. thermodynamic
11. Human health project
12. principles of entrepreneurship project
13. PIPC project
14. OC project
sounds alot eh....oh man.....darn darn darn darn darn busy man..need to completed in 3 weeks..........oh man.....
i wish it will all end....all end.....i must just focus on my studies......only studies...........nth else......sigh... boring julian cheng.

finally.....i blog...

2005-01-06T21:45:00.000+08:00

hahah..been such a long time sinc ei blog......oh man..cant remember when was e last time...been real busy......all of a sudden...its been 5 weeks since the sch term have restarted....oh man..so many thingy has happen...like gettin first for sports day..second for bballl........etc etc etc.........can nv forget e test that have just past...im so screwed....i know i definitely cannot do well for it.....oh man...and im so worried about my presentation....i feel like a china person.can speak eng properly...all broken like......sigh.......head is spinning nw.....finally finish 4 tests....but have term tests 2 weeks later....oh man..gona be so busy...and so many projects...feel so worn out nw.....hahahz....so many things must do....princples on entre.......CSAS.....AM.....Human health.....TD...OC2..PIPC2...........sigh.........got to work hard for nw.........

august baby..

2004-12-26T02:38:00.000+08:00

Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless.Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Tale Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends .

bitchy EnTRy

2004-12-06T13:12:00.000+08:00

oh man oh man oh man......sch have started.......ARGH...........dun like...hahaha..gt to be in sch like in 4 hrs time..wahahaha...damn..that sucks......just woke up...hw cool is that...for e first and e only time i can wake up at 12.....wahaah......hmm....lucky for me today only have lessons for an hr.....but tmr....oh man..its crazzy........9-6........oh man.......gona feng diao le...hahaha....sigh.......still have 24 days to e new yr.......cantwait...hahaha...sigh..no shoppin for myself man....im so dead......hahah...sianz..dunno wat to blog le....bye

end of E YR appRoachin

2004-12-04T21:52:00.000+08:00

ooooohhhhhhh man....this year..has been so happenin...so much things have happen....i reaaly cant belive it....but im glad its over...full of ups...and down..yea...more down....den ups yea.....sigh......................................................
ok here goes.....i remember my new year's resolution for 2004 was........gettin a job.....passin my o'levels.........forgettin and lettin go e past i had with mandy....and guess wat...i got all i wanted....but sigh....lost alot too.....this year started off quite badly.....was like a good for nothin.....cant finda freakin job...and keep givin myself excuses that hw hard isit to get a job..but i nv really tried.....sigh........den came a huge conflict with my best friend...we had such a big fight........nah..more of a cold war...hahaha......and reeallly regret losin her...we were once so closed man...sigh..kinda miss u alot.....hahaha.....hmmm...nw...we r friends no more...and that sucks....best friends for 4 yrs...go through thick and thin..had so much in common...did so many things together...and just because of a fuckin 100 bucks.....if i have e chance...i wld nt have taken it.....sigh........den it came my O's....wow....e first thing that actually make my year........hahahah....did quite well..........was kinda please......but sadly..could nt go into e course i wanted...actually i always wanted to go to JC...but i really doubt myself.......afraid that i cant make it........was so low on confidence.....sigh....hw i wish i cld turn back time and go to JC.....nt that i dun like my course......but its like..i shld have done somethin im interested in..nt somethin im gd in...but watever it is...no regrets......really grown up a alot this year............after that was back to findin jobs...but sadly...none..so decide to slack and hang out...i remember i used to spent most of my time with my gd friend jeremy...sigh..miss him alot...dunno why aint so close nw.....was expectin him at klass gatherin.......den finallly,...was start of poly...damn was nervous...really afraid i cant make ffriends and stuff...but i did....luckily i was in e same klass with kenny...........damn it came e big big jac thingy.......oh man..that was like e climax of my life...but all i cld say is.....she is attached....and im happy for her nw...came to a so called 'happy' ending.....hahahah.......she with some1 she love so much..and im alone.........i have somethin to say to her....if u have known me better.....we cld have been together....but like u said.....fate has ended.....dun worry...ur my jie mei......my gd friend......no matter wat...i will not give up anythin to lose a friend that i have know for 8 yrs........even we haven been so close..or nv been real close....always on and off........hahaha...tk care ya..and BE HAPPY with JACK..(lucky son of a bitch....wahahaha)........ok....that tjhingy affected me alot..was like e lowest pt in this yr.....but im fine nw......hahaha...den was sch sch and more sch...studyin hard....im so glad to have meet my 4 bros....si wei....richie......DENNIs....and mr BING.....hahaha........and i made alot of friends this yr...damn cool.....hahaha....we studied...blade..ate......went broke together...and stuff.....although during holidays kinda drifted aprt...but i wll nv forget e times we spent...hahahah..cheERS!!!!!......den so quickly it was holidays again..after first term....we work so hard..studied studied and studied...yes we slack alot...but........heh heh..we all passed........................den was e period of NAB.....wah...was damn fun..made me grow up alot...seen loads of stuff....seriously..up to nw...i still she bu de leave that place..but i have to...for my own gd...den after that was e TEC thingy..allthough i worked for 1 event nia...it was a damn cool thing...seriously....i have to thank jon for givin me e job.....and i hope eveyrthin will be better for him soon..nv regret meetin him.......and tell u e truth jon...if i ever work in any event....i really nt sure wats expected of me.,....all i know is i will do my best......although im nt confident i will do a gd job...hahahah.......seriously...my confidence is nt back...but its there..and its gettin better......and throughout this year...can nv forget amanda e greaat...all e talks we had....u will always be a special person in my heart.....and nw...it have come to a pt...that sch is reopenin...,bahhhhhh...!!!! it sucks...........hahah..but im glad........will put my new years resolution when new year is here.....hahahaha...have thought if it le...wahahahah.............ok la..gona end here......last day of freedom....back to e shackles of books............sigh........heh heh...look forward to e challenge...

last day at china

2004-11-27T21:47:00.000+08:00

woah...tis is e last day in china le....hahah...damn fun fun fun...sigh...kinda gona miss this place...today is like a big day in singapore ya...damn hw i wish im there...spend 3 days at hk...4 days at shen zhen....damn damn fun...walk alot...shop alot...there goes all my money...really bu she de li kai...but im sure..i'll be back....HK is such an expensive place.....damn nice..everythin is nice......walk many many places....tsim sha tsui..causeway bay..saw loads of cool hp..was damn tempted to buy man..but not pratical...wahahah....hmmm.....damn my beloved LV......wah.....damn nice....i wana buy..up till today still thinkin about it...hahah...nw every1 is packin to go back to spore...wah..miss spore too...hahha..kinda like a sentimental person eh....hahah....hmm..stayed at royal garden at Hk...and WAN SHI DA JIU DIAN in shen zhen..both very nice.......hmm...today in spore....nokia last day...e wrap up..damn wish i cld work man...sigh...and zhou jie lun concert...wah...sianz........i wana go.....ahhaa...sigh sigh.......hmmm....went to do pedicure...and somebody came to read my palm...wahahah..damn it man.....kana cheated by e auntie...but still quite true...hahaha....really had a gd time here...and met loads of pple....wahahah......goin back spore.......dunno shld continue workin nt.....gona miss my daddy...he will still be here in shen zhen...while we go back.....hmmm......sigh...miss lanz and mindy loads loads....hahaha..hmm..wana meet up with e guys before sch starts man..miss them loads........k la..think gona end here..last game of MJ in shen zhen le...wahahah......have to wake up at 8 tmr.....heh....si ding le........bye Hk..ByE shEN zhen...really will miss this place...

sigh sigh

2004-11-20T01:00:00.000+08:00

its true....its true..everytime i blog..im sad...hahha..this time...im sad...and fan....dunno hw 2 feell.........ok...many problems....firstly..jac have a bf...im fine..im fine...it means e end le.....but i somehw feel she will be back.....dotz.......hahah....secondly.....im goin to hk...i dun wana go overseas sad and sianz...aint gd....sucks....last time..remember...went to phillipines...miss jac like shit...came back...break liao...wahahah....ben si le....was damn fuckin suey this whole week...so many crap happen.....dun feel like doin anythin le.....luckily...work was fine...really like my job...really enjoyed e 2 days with my colleague...one of them is yi ting i think...find thats she is cute lei..hahaa...kinda have a special feeling for her....damn malu when ask for her no. lo....den she always steals my subway...oh man...monster..!.....hahah....but anyhw...dun really like any gers nw......wana cool down...see what happen next ba......and e thing is.....theres somethin about one of my friend...thing we r driftin apart....major problem is.......he only knows hw to recieve...dunno hw to give.....u know hw selfish is that.........this sucks man...ok...just hope i enjoy my holidays...and i can get to know e yi ting better...wahahah.....sianz.....dunno wat to do..friday note sucks.....

updatin ya

2004-11-12T14:48:00.000+08:00

just realise smt....im real low on confidence...real afraid to fail...and takes a long time to stand up after one set back....this sucks...i hate it...really on a road of healing...tryin to find e old me..or make a new me...a better me....been workin real hard....real tired and sick....dunno wat to do...really need a rest....goin to get away frm all this................did somethin real silly...which still able to salvage...however,i refuse to salvage it.....................owe some1 alot...however have no way of payin back...feel real guilty..really thinkin of either stop recievein...and let go..or it time to pay back........................really need to forget some stuff to be happier..........................havin problems with peeps...........hope to resolve all e things...................................................................

a real troubled person

DAmn DAmn DAmn TRuE man...

2004-11-03T13:55:00.000+08:00

VIRGO MAN
Time is precious for Virgo man and if you make him wait, he will consider that as an insult. He hates to hear criticism and hates to be criticize. If he is criticizing other people, then he must be influenced by! other Z odiac. He is and he likes to be a perfectionist. He always think he is doing the right and appropriate thing , and often he thinks he makes no mistake. He is a bright guy and could accept comments if he thinks it can improve himself. He is the type who well adjusted to make changes. He will spent money carefully and spent it worthwhile. He will only extravagant for his personnel pleasure only. He is quite romantic, a type of guy who can drive 100 miles just to tell you how much he misses you. If he does not care about you, he will not even spent a dime to call you locally. Long distant special low rate call is also out of the question. He hates rough and crude people. His woman has to be clean and dress well. He inspects any thing in details beside being a perfectionist, so you could be lying in your bikini with a perfect figure and he can suddenly comments you about your big feet. If you gain 2 pounds , he may comments you are getting too fat. Before going out with this kind of guy, look at yourself head to toe in the mirror and ask yourself if you are really and entirely ready. Unless he dates a model, then he will have less comments. He is neat and tidy, so his life always in a schedule, a fix time to lunch, the same time to go home. He is well knowledge about food and conscious about nutrition, so you won't see this guy eating a junk food, or strange and exotic food for sure. You will see him in social events or party if only necessary. He is gifted with acting, so if he says he can not go out with you because he is sick, then you will belief him. He is a hard to please when it comes to what to eat, how to work, what kind of a woman to date. He always neat and tidy all the times, even if he is in the army, he will be the cleanest soldier in the camp. He likes to speak properly with no slang. He hates laziness and lazy people. He always act like a boring mature adults, but gettin! g to kno w him , you will know he has his own charm. He always see things clearly, so he is not the type to be blinded by love. He is a kind and cool guy, but if constantly irritate with rudeness, ignorant, or stupidity then he will show you that he is annoyed. You may see a guy in this Zodiac dress up in an old shirt and old Jean, but if you look carefully, you will see that his hair is neat and unconsciously he will touch his hair a lot. His desk is always neat and if he sees small scrap paper on the floor, he will pick it up or put it in the basket. People may think he is selfish, because when he says "No", he really means it. Any favor asked , he will help but always in his own limit. The more he see faults in others, the less he wants people to see his. If you want him to change his faults, try to tell him gently or he could take it as an insult. He wants love that comes with quality, so he only has a few loves in his life. Woman's trick will not work with him. If he breaks up with a woman, he will also try to avoid all her friends and her environments too. He is very picky and every breaking up, he will be double careful next time. He can sweep woman with his charm, but he likes to keep his relationship like a friend. He likes a sincere self confident woman, neat and clean, perfect and tidy. A real two "P" , picky and perfectionist Zodiac.

damn sianz

2004-10-25T13:50:00.000+08:00

wtf..last time no job..complain...nw have job..also sianz,....feelin damn bored man...real tired..lazy go work....dunno why sia...........sigh..dunno wat 2day will be like man...sigh....
PS.hmm..was wonderin hw u were doin..

damn..

2004-10-24T05:10:00.000+08:00

worked for 2 days le...dyin soon...22 hrs straight.....slp den wake up..den work,...most comfortin thing is that i see that my manager..is a real nice guy....damn tired nw...finally off tmr...but shall go out n play..been missin some fun..hahah..cut my damn hand today...fuck sia..bleed like siao l.....wtf man.......and e worst thing...my complextion is like shit....sian.......nw i know money is hard to earn sia.....sigh.....wana slp le..nite

damn damn damn

2004-10-21T23:40:00.000+08:00

ohhh man...dieded..........very tired nw...went to see E AM today...wah.....he was kinda nice wor...tmr startin work le..dieded la...haiz.....dunno hw it will be like....sadedd........hmmm..hope tmr will be fine...tmr also gettin back my restuls lei...wah....stress sia....first is work...den is result..i really hope friday will be a fine day man....hahaha..pls...PLss....PLSSSSSSS............oh man...very stress..must sleep early....very tired...but stress...hahaha..died....pls......let tmr be a fine day........

hey...

2004-10-21T13:55:00.000+08:00

bloggy...bet u miss me alot..wahahh...haven blog for like 10 yrs le...sigh..life is boring this days...slackin at home..accompanyin my mum and e two monsters...hahaha....life is just so simple this few days...but gona start work soon le..gona be busy..real excited...hahah....dunno watssup with me..maybe...cause very long nv work le...haa....sill decidin shld i vut my hair not.....hmm...*confused.....Dennn....did somethin damn bad..did not go for chalet...im a real let downn...but......sigh.....dunno why just dun feel like goin......im sorry...if u guys wana get angry..u have all e right.....hmmm..woke up today man...dreamt of faillin OC......*sobz....i dun wan..i study real hard k.....unfair..!! i dun wana fail........*sobz...wahaha....hmmm....tmr is results le..sigh..hope can do well ba...at least pass......hmmm...bad news for my bro again..sorry realy cant help u this time.....u got to solve this problem urself..decide whether u wan her..or not....i only can be ur listenin ear...im in no mood to be some1 whu could give u construtive advice.....hahah....sorry yea...sigh..woke up..den theres was a song...*if ur hearts not in it....keep repeatin in my mind......hahaha....last time when a princess left me...i kept listeinin to e song..since that day till nw..i haven been able to let her go..but im tryin..for my own gd n hers...hhaha...must be STRONG>....hahah...feel like goin to buy some stuff today,...hahaha....but im broke..see hw ba...goin city a while...get some errands done...haa....tc blog...goin for lunch.....bye

real nervous

2004-10-14T13:24:00.000+08:00

hey bloggy.......been a long time since i updated....hahaha....hmmm..but this time im not sad eh..hahaha.,.just nervous...hahaha....goin for interview at 3 later...hahaha......i really hope to get this job cause it have always been my dream to work at this kind of place.......i know gettin e job is just e first step..makin friends..and learinin new things is e next steps.....but i really hope this interview will go through....no matter wat...if i get e job or not must thank dennis whu set this all up for us.....hahaha..thanks bro.......hope u and char willbe happy...i can really tell she is a nice ger...all i can say is u guys deserve each other.....i belive u guys can go far..... :).......sigh....about my own love life is in a mess...but nvm....its ok....shall work hard first if i can get e job....hahah..den go HK.......been dunno hw long le.....but its fine....aint thinkin of her so much...right on track to let go ya......hahha....k la..need to go grab lunch le....ciaoz....

exams over....haa

2004-10-07T23:42:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey...exams finally over...damn shack man...hahaha...hope can pass all man......sigh....hmmm.....kinda worried for oc......hmmm...finish my paper den went to play pool e whole day man...so tired...and broke...haha...mum's in a bad mood..i hope she cheer up soon ba........i hope i can find a job......haa...

ok...each time i add a testi is cause im kinda sad...
hmmm....before e exams...and durin e exams..was kinda decidiin whether i shld go for jac or not...or just forget about it....but i guess....seems like she made e decision for me.....sigh....shes attached....im knooww....so sad........but wat can i do....im happy.....real happy for u......pls be happy with him...u have my blessin....*SmilEs.....wat can i say...im just a few days late?..i was a few days late e last time too.....sigh.....like e sayin goes...wat is mean to be is mean to be....im disappointed ya..but i'll be fine....i'll make go use of these 7 weeks......and learn to forget u.....

ps...god bless me to get a job...heh heh.......

hey hey..

2004-09-27T23:33:00.001+08:00

haha..dunno why...but suddenly feel like updatin...examz coming le..but damn sianz..dun feel like studyin...haaa...i also dunno why..no motivation ba...hmmm..every1 is studyin just so hard..yet im slackin..hahaha..saw jac's best friends today at business..so called 'mean girls'.haha..they are all damn pretty lo....elle...tall skinny....pretty..look like a model.....hazel....e cute cute 1....(saw her trip on a watermelon once..heh heh...)...den is lastly matured lookin and sexy wendy....haa...all real pretty man....haa..hmm...but duno why nv see jac...maybe its just fate ba...last time we will at least meet once a week(i always remember our promise last time of meetin once a week)..but now haiz...kinda like 2 weeks le...hmm..kinda miss her...wonderin hw is she doin..haa..went to study today..was damn tired...didnt study much man....im so slack..den went to play pool...hahaha.....si wei was damn angry ba...but think tmr will be fine le...might be goin to blade tmr....my mummy is coming back tmr...WEEe.....so happy...hahaha..miss her and my dad loads man....hmmm...sigh sigh.......just brought lanz and mindy down...damn cute man both of them....haa....always so happy...heard frm si wei that he finally might have a target...damn happy for him man..that means its just left me le.....but chill la...think no1 wan me de la...so i shall be lonely eh...haaa..poor me..*pats.................k la..need to go bathe le..damn tired now...haa....maybe update when im free.......need to chiong for exams...hohoz......sigh....

PS...where is my princess.......been a long time since i saw ya.Sigh.

cant slp once again

2004-09-25T03:52:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey..its my gd buddy birthday yesterday....hahah...went for bbq..at our usual tengtong road...hahah..damn fun ba...richie came and we tolk load of rubbish..hahaha..made potato salad once again..and was snap up so quickly..poor kenny..dun get to eat..hahahz...hmmm...was damn fun la..but dun think cant stay over..cause have to study for exam ba...hahah..sorry dude...hmmm.den jac sms me for supper...actually dun really wan to go...but was like..its been a long time since i last saw her and stuff and need to tolk to her..but...haa.....i got stoood up once again.........omg..im just so silly...but nvm la..dosent matter ba..it just reflects hw much i mean to her ya....haa..but its ok...since when i mean somethin to her rite...just one sided love......hmm....was listening to liu sha...damn real lo..reflects hw i feelin nw...haa.....hmm..got to study

并不是真的路过而已也不是真的不会想你全都不是真的是骗自己其实还爱你爱著你我以为我早想清楚不由自主恍恍惚惚又走回头路再看一眼有过的幸福爱情好像流沙我不挣扎随它去吧我不害怕爱情好像流沙心里的牵挂不愿放下 OH BABY 让我这样吧爱情好像流沙我不说话等待黑暗让泪能落下爱情好像流沙明知该躲它无法自拔 OH BABY 是我太傻是一再的做一再的错不由我我一步一步一步一步慢慢走向流沙

tired tired tired...healing songs..haa.

2004-09-21T01:33:00.000+08:00

sigh sigh..such a long day..been cleanin e hse over n over again man..damn dirty lo...e god keep pee n pooo...sigh...im a maid...haaa...mummy.....faster come back..went to starbucks to study today....haa...so cold there sia..but did loads of work la..hahah..luckly drank a nice drink..hahahz...hmmm.......den suddenly thought of jac...den kinda sad sad..haaa.....but on e way home..listen to ge qian and jie kou...remember e promised i promise myself....felt much better le...haa...so tired man..my eyes got glue....think gona slp le......nitez

fucking morining man...

2004-09-20T13:05:00.000+08:00

WTF....i woke up and saw shit all over e floor lo..was damn fuckin tired lo..its just 10.45 lo..i slept at 6.30 last nite...kaoz...i have to clean e shit...mop e floor..walk e dog..feed e dog.....and bathe e dog......on man...damn tired now lo......cant slp sia..pon sch today just to study and end up so tired...dunno can study anot sia...wtf..........sigh sigh..wat a morinin lo......

last nite when i first recieve ur sms...i thought....wtf......must be tryin to disturb me or tryin to make fun of me lo.....so aint wana fall in it ya...cause wtf i aint ur spare tire lo..u cant get jack and now its me again...pls man........its been so long den u suddenly tell me all those again..i tried so hard to patch things up...but u just send me a few sms and things will be fine? i did sms u e past 2 weeks but u aint reply..so i just take it thats its over la.....oh man....i dunno la..it aint so easy la....and there is one big problem that u aint know lo.......thats e stumbling block that keeps me frm u....

i need to fuckin hell study hard..but my eyes den heavy lo...wana dieded liao lo.......shld i study or go slp..kaoz...my mummy went away....why must u go...i need u alot man.........8 days of pain man...me doing all e hsework..cookin dinner..etc etc.......sigh.....think of it i also sianz la.....wtf....poor me man..........sigh...... dad is goin soon too..goin to play home alone soon..wahahaha.......any robbers...dare to come....??heh heh...hmmm....but gers are welcome...any1 wana come...Muahahah...~.....k la..im crappin..wana get some rest n maybe study...update ya again when i feel not okay...haa...

Ooo...Bitchy OC tEst

2004-09-17T01:23:00.000+08:00

FReak.....i got a freakin test in e fuckin mornin lo..kaoz...must wake up so early...den after that have 4 hrs break...wtf am i supoose to do...shake leg ar...sianz.....hmm...damn long day today lo..just realise theres is loads of shit i dunno in sch..gona fail exam le....bloody oc lectureres....tmd....freak u man....make me skip u lecture....purposely sia..nvm....its ok....weekend coming le sia..hahah..i wana go out but i have to study...hahah..i shall take sat off..and ggo out with amanda...hahaha.....been a long time since i saw her man...sigh sigh..today kinda moody..but overall still fine la...haa...wana say thanks to my jie.......for ur concern..but im fine le la.......without her..im happier...its e truth.freak sia...today in lecture dunno why pple keep starin at me...think must go cut my hair le..or maybe my gay pink shirt..wahahah..but its cute ma..shall go to town on sat man..been a long time since i step in le....
hahah..dennis..ni si ding le la...tell u ar...charyln is all over u le..this time u are e first lucky 1 to have gf le...hahah..i can gay with si wei..dun worry...hahaha......poor me and si wei..still searchin for our beloved princess...hahahaz......
i must pass my freakin test tmr lo..or not im soooooo sooo sooooo dead lo...i mean screwed la...hhaaz.....damn...hungry again..but brush teeht le....must jian fei..hhaa...k la..update tmr la....nth to say about today le..but just need all my luck for tmr...whahaha.......

slackin nw man

2004-09-15T23:52:00.000+08:00

yoyoyo...damn it man..almost end of e day le....been studyin for damn long...but cover very little..goin at turtle speed lo.haha..must jia you le..dad is back frm KL...but goin to china again soon...saded...den mum also goin phillpines..better tk care k..will miss u guys loads..and i shall be king of e hse for a while..muahah..~.hmm...have so many things to study man......haa...finally project is almost done le....can concetrate on my work..just have to touch up tmr..although we had of difference......but we still make it la..haha....think gona end here le....still got loads to finish...
ps.dum dum..jia you..heh heh
ps. fad u bitch
ps. sometimes when i dun tolk to u is for ur own gd eh.

My Wish..

2004-09-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

yooyo....today sucks....loads of work to do..and i cant finish...argh..some1 help me pls...hahaha...dieded man..must really jia you le la..kaoz....so much work..wtf man...aint goin out this week man..gona stay home n study...hmmm....but theres 1 freakin problem..shld i go for match tmr not...dun feek like lei..hw ar...haha...diede man.....need to study hard la...but cannot pang seh my friends lei..hw ar.....sigh..tmr freakin long day lo....no time no time no time...help me...boo...!!!!!.........damn tired nw..not enough slp..but have to finish my farkin project...kaoz..other klass de so easy...wtf is mine so diff....fuck man...stupid women..make me do so much thiny....nvm..i will survive de..i shall do my klass proud and u shall not moan and whin anymore...im sick and tired of it man...today went to play badminton till my hand freakin pain nw lo...my wound keep openin...dieded man...haa....den went to bind all my freakin papers....kaoz..so heavy sia.....haa.....dieded man..nvm.at least they are all arrange man..den went down to library for a latte...hahah..wootz...damn shaung...haa....damn tired nw......feel like slpin..haa...but i must do project...save me...damn...had a dreamn of amanda lo..and it was like woah...thats wat i can say..keep thinkin aboput it e whole day....hahaha..u know ar..when i listen to ge qian..it remind me of jac..haa..everytime will listen den think of her...hahah..but its a nice song la......better end here...den go do my work le..heh heh.........World ppeACE pls...haa...im sound so noble.,..whahaha....

PS.u only wana make pple like u den u stop likin e person le.think i dunno.i know u too well le.wahahah..dun belive u shall see.........

yayy....

2004-09-13T13:35:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i last blog man..hahah..sianz sian..nw in sch com lab...today woke up damn late lo..was damn tired sia...cant slp last nite man...den go sch do project and play badminton only...haaa....hmm....tmr got bball match lei..dunno wana go not..but i seriously damn long no p-lay le lo...hjahah....need to bind all my books lei..but scared very malu to go to book shop bind lei...haa.......must chiong finish project first man..or not sure dieded de...hahaha.....hmm..k la..at nite den blog again....cya...

its OVer...WEe

2004-09-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey......just realise my princess have fall in luv with some1 else le...haaa........feel so damn happy for her man....finally........ and its time for me to start forgetin.....haa...and she is moving hse le......so finally......everythin comes to an end.......Thanks For all e sweet memories and stuff.i'll kip it in my heart.god bless ya.

SiGhz

2004-09-06T22:33:00.000+08:00

ain feelin gd this few days man...i really dun know wtas wrong with me..somethin is missin....really...and e best part...i cant find it...it seem to disappear.....sigh......listenin to if i aint got u...hahaha..damn nice song lo...sigh..tmr have test,,no motivation.........hmmm..wana say that......i really tried my best to make an effort to patch things up.....and stuff....i nv asked u out b4...remember...but twice...i tired..and u said..'when i have my off day i will tell u again' den thats it.hmmm...wats up man......den came e day i saw ya frm far...just stood there n stare at u like i always do...watch u frm afar...catch for u when u fall protect u,comfort u and etc.but it nv happen to me that i ever have u in my arms doin somethin couples do.haa.maybe i might nv have a chance to watch u frm far le.be there for u.catch u when ur fall.silly huh..always im doin such dum stuff..when i suppose to hate u..but e thing is.love can forgive everythin on earth.everythin..dunno why no courage to walk up.my legs just wouldn't move to say 'hi'.why.reason why although we stay so close...i nv ask u out is cause im always afraid to get rejected.reason why i nv sms u.cause i always am afraid that u dun reply.its frustratin.guess u have move on le ba.guess u have forgotten about wat happen and stuff la.but i think i still need more time.tmr have a test lo...damn important...and i dun wana study........i dunnno why......sigh...no mood..saturated mind...funny man..everytime i write my blog..i feel sad......feel fan...feel moody....haa...kind of a way i relife all e sadness and frustration within ba....today played badminton......play till my leg e skin came off..left e mean...damn pain lo....haa....dieded man..lucky tmr no soccer...or not cant play....hmmm..tmr long day wor...i hope when i sleep....and wake up...everythin will be fine again...22.46 06/09/2004(mon)

siGh.

2004-09-05T02:49:00.000+08:00

yoyoyo....its like 2.50...damn late le..damn tired too...hmmm...kinda cant slp cause was waitin for jac reply...maybe..haa......dunno la..kinda miss her somehw...really wana see her n stuff...i know next week gona be a damn busy week lo....dieded man...haa.....must get more rest tmr le..and study harder...hmmm......went bladin today man..i blade till darn far lo.....when i hear e song ge qian..i was like..i wana blade even harder...more motivation..wana get all my frusttration out man.....but it didnt work...still kinda sad...haa....hw i wish i can turn back time...nt long....just 2 months ago..when things are so sweet and stuff...was darn stupid to let u go man....sigh sigh........wat can i do to get u back...haa...sittin here...just wonderin about stuff...think about u....haa...darn stupid la...but its ok...cant control my mind la......sigh.......damn sian also..when holidays come..wtf and im gona do...i dun think i can find a job again lei..sianz....i dun wan to cant get a job again...sigh.........just completed my game..aint gona play it for a long time till i finish studyin for exam man..dun wana repeat OC la....sigh..damn worried.....cant fail la....sigh......hmmmm.....tmr will be a day where i slack e most man.......haa.....hmmm....dunno wat to say le la...sian

ps.fadzali u r a bitch....
darn....only if u know hw much i miss u....

bad day

2004-09-03T22:44:00.000+08:00

hahah....today just sucks!!!!!!!.........went to get a haircut...in e end...my hair got a hole....wtf man...i can die a horrible death le..nvm...den e freakin auntie.....help me put gel that is like helmet...ding dong de sia.........den went to sch..end up no lesson..postpone...wtf man...suey anot....den end up...go home...freakin tired..dun wana go AGm...den end up.....kana scolded...really disappointed mr wong man...fuck....sorry man..hai....i shld have gone la...bbut i just cant be bothered....very irresponsible.....sorry man.......den stayed home to chill e whole damn day...tired man....kaoz....tmr must go study le.....sigh..update tmr ba......

boo...update b4 sch

2004-09-02T09:56:00.000+08:00

hahaha...omg..i have to go sch soon..have pipc test today.....dieded man..loads i dunno hw 2 do lei..hw ar...think m gona die again...haaa.....hmmm....went bladin yesterday..was damn fun man....but tired la..nw my leg pain...muscle pain...haa.......today long day wor..cant wait for it to be over man...lack of sleep...might have caught flu i think...hahaha..dieded.....gona take a vitamin C later....haaa....think thats all for now la....2night den update again...haa..bye blog

haha...updatin

2004-09-01T00:09:00.000+08:00

hmm...today celebrated my bro's birthday man..was kinda fun ba..long time nv see my friends le..miss them loads man...hahhaa...hmmm...although tired and have test tmr..but i think its ok laa......hmmm....feel like slpin nw....ok...i have been fine for e last few days since i last saw ya.although my mind have random flashes of memories we shared.i still feel fine.nt as bad as last time when i really miss ya badly.wat sign is this..i really dunno...lets just let time show everythin ba.....if ya didnt read my blog.this is wat happen....e thing i say xie men was....i really didnt know whether to let ya go not...so i decided to let god decide..i said...'lord...if i dun get to see jac by 11.59 29/8/2004..den i will let all go...but if i see her......there is still hope...that we r fated to be together.' and i thing u know hw e story end ba...haaa....xie men rite...

ok...tmr goin to play badminton man..been a long time since i played..hahah..dieded.....very tired too..i wana go blade too...hahaha........see hw ba......hope tmr ill have e strength to do stuff ba..haa....nitez blog..time to chill den slp...

ps.isit really fate?.or pure conicidence?.

hahah..2nd update wor!!!

2004-08-29T12:52:00.000+08:00

hahha..just woke up..damn tired lo....haa..now is 12,54....listenin to jie kou now....wanted to sing it yesterday...haa..but sang anjing though..also gd la...hmmm....really sang all my xing shi out man..haa..very shuang.....its been a long time since i have so much fun........i hope i can get my 3 wishes.......1st..i wan all my friends and family to be with me and stay happy(esp mindy and lanz..give me a baby)....2nd..i wana work hard and be a better person so i can make a difference to every1's life...3rd.....i wan my princesss......!!..haaa....im not greedy rite....just 3 wishes......haaa.....all my pals that celebrated my birthday for me....thanks alot...it means alot.....this is a very very gd memory...i will keep it in my heart..in my mind...and nv forget u guys....u guys rock..!!!.....haaa....really miss u guys today.....haaa...slept for 5 hrs man..damn tired.....one of these days...me and si wei will be back to e KTV and sing our hearts out!!!!~hohoz...might be goin shoppin later on...been a long time since i bought somethin.....

ps.i really love u guys loads.
ps.i wana be as happy as last time.when nth happened.

hey hey...today my birthday wor..haaa

2004-08-29T06:39:00.000+08:00

hey....today is my brithday..just got home man..today was damn damn fun...hahaha......went to ktv..sing our heart out..play pool...hahaha.....and went to eat supper at kopitiam..saw loads of ah quaa there..den we keep tolkin about them...hahaha....make me lose my appitie....haha....hmm..now is 6.42..so dammn late le..and im damn tired...hahaha...this year birthday and last yr different man..haaa...hmmm..dunno wat it means la.....im gona leave this thingy to god 1 last time...if i dun see her by e end of 2day.den let it be over ba e reason why i sms her was to meet her..and she was like so dao..so nvm ba..its ok..she didnt even wish me happy birthdy....maybe she forgot...haa..whu noes.....maybe it just not meant to be ma....haiz...sobz.....but today was damn fun la...must thank all my buddies man...haha..love u guys loads..!! heh heh...gona slp le..damn tired...nite nite......

ps.thanks for everythin.:)

booo....end of my hardwork..

2004-08-27T19:32:00.000+08:00

hahah..today was CCN day..i made e haunted hse man....took so much effort man..was dfamn damn fun..first time i did such a thingy as a leader..loads of gers came n scream man..hahaha...but there are also bastard whu tear down my wall la...kaoz..sianz...haa...so many thingy to do..but we really did it...we were all great...haa..great team sprit...just reach home mn..dan tired......haa....wana si diao le..guess wat...they sang a birthday song for me man..so touch...hahaha..thanks guys....hmmm....birthday coming soon man....can rem wat happen last year...gosh...been a long time..haa....come to think of it..it was like yesterday when i last send jac home...when she was dead drunk....were for a prediction man.,...kaoz..it was damn damn damn zhun....hahaa...said..wat happen in e past was cause we all choose to 'tao bi'...den now its like she haven got over juli...so cant be together..den ask me to help her move on in order for her to get over juli.this will strengthen our love etc etc...haa....but e problem is...we dun even tolk anymore....nvm ba..like i said..its just a prediction..haa...sigh....think after this ccn day..must start studyin le....haa...i hope 1 day we can do this again...it is really damn fun lo....hmm..dun know wat i wana say le...sigh.....bye..

finally get e time man

2004-08-25T23:37:00.000+08:00

okok..i have made it a point to blog almost everyday...haaa..im damn busy this few days...too busy till i cant think bout anythin...haa..im damn freakin tired nw..done with e hse chores...den done with my project thingy..finally...must pack my bag later...or not tmr dieded le..no time..haa..i made 2 damn cute caps today k..im so clever...hahaha...damn tired nw....so many pple bully me today man...boo..!!..dieded.......update tmr la...damn tired le..nite

sianz...WTF..

2004-08-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

pls tell me wats wrong wif woman...kaoz..so many things happen sia...just got home kana scolded till jia lat jia lat lo....for no reason.....sigh sigh...wat i do sia....sianz....den she just shout n shout at me lo...damn tired...got test to study.....but now no mood le...sianz....went out with kai li and karen today.was fun la..tellin them about stuff.....hmm..guess wat..i got a 30 bucks bill nd got shouted at....lol....i dun understand man..only thing i can agree is...my dad is in china workin so hard while i just slack ard...omg....think got to do somethin with my life man.think my life aint so gd nw ba...sigh....think stop here la..moodless today...

2nd update

2004-08-23T22:23:00.000+08:00

yoyo...second blog of e day...haa..hmm..was damn tired..went to slp..den end up wakin up feelin even worst......haa....hmm..tmr is a damn long day...gona play soccer..dunno can make it anot..haha..damn.!!!i just miss friends......omg..!!nvm,...next week ba...hmm..was readin e book about men r frm mars n women r frm venus.seriously.just cant understand gers eh..did some maths and MEb...all dunno hw to do.cant thinkstraight...maybe gona do abit more later ba..haa...hmm think this is hw my day gona end ba..kinda boring and no life..but its ok la..tmr will be much betta.!...haa

ps.remember once when we decided nt to contact anymore..guess wat...i saw u at bedok reservoir....u were on e bus 228 i think..den u pretend nt to see ma..haa..hw qiao can things be eh...haaa.....those were really e days...was missin u today..hope ya ok ba....TC....i really hope to see u.n tolk to u.but.........haa....nvm ba....

booo....hoho..

2004-08-23T16:29:00.000+08:00

omg....damn damn long day...hahah..ok la..nt so long la..bbut im so so tired....hahahz.....im so ke lian...*pats...hohoz...i wana sleep afternnoon nap...heh heh....hmmm...just got home and no1 is home...hahaha.....just my two super duper cute dogs beside me..waitin for me to finish my blog and go bathe..so i can sleep with them...hahaha....soooooo cutee......haa.....hmmm.....had CCn day discussion man....sucks.....i really cant stand kids man......insolent behaviour......boo.!...haa...den had OC...i realise..if i actually went to check my tutorial..i will not freakin faill.....haa...nvm...suan le......i must jia you le.....

tmr got soccer...haa..sianz.....must play with.......dotz.....den maybe goin bladin ba...but i very tired lei..hw ar...some1 save me can....haa......got to slp n wake up to do tutorial...haa.....sianz..

Ps.gd that u found some1 new.

yoyo...

2004-08-22T20:35:00.000+08:00

hahah..today wasss gooood......weee....went for my friend birthday...forgot when is e last time i tolk to her le.....although i was kinda broke la...but i think e amt i spend is worth it....haa....was like 2 yrs ago since we last tolked..and nw finally we became back as freinds....COOL>..!!!...hahah...hope can meet ya more often ba...haa...hmmm...today woke up got scoldin frm my mum for nth man...shd just scolded and scolded.......haiz...sux....nw..she aint tolkin to me le..haa...hope she lighten up soon ba...got to go study soon man...or not i will die a horrible death...haa....tmr got a long day..wish me luckk :)

boo....heh heh

2004-08-22T00:05:00.000+08:00

hoho.,...yoz blog...haa....ni hao ma....omg..im tolkin to a non livin thiny...haa....just reach home..damn..tmr gt tn..shld i go..?...but i quit bball le lei....hw ar...haa...hmm..see hw ba.,...see wat time i wake up...heh heh...hmmm..today was fun...i went out with amada ben dan...haa...its been a long time since i last saw her..i found that....shee grow taller le...heh heh....hmmm.....went to watc e movie 'quil'..wah..damn damn sad...e dog dieded.....almost man..hw if lanz go...wtf and i goin to do.......haa...i love lanz...i love mindy....haa..i hpe they will be with me forever....hohoz......hmmm....goin to slp soon ba.........haa...i plan le..next time shall go bladin n kite flyin with amanda ben dan..hohohz.....den i met si wei and ah bing today.....bing ar....better jia you tmr....wish u all e best...hahahaz..... :)..think gona bathe den slp le..haa...nitez blog...

just AnothEr Day

2004-08-20T18:56:00.000+08:00

whu e fuck are u luke...crazy bitch....anyhow tag...waste my space....kaoz.....ok....today was a long day man...tired...just got home...haa...hmmm..been in sch since 9.....had lab and stuff..den played soccer in e rain..damn shaung...haaa...think this is one of e special days...nt everyday u can play in e rain eh...haa.....hmmm...but make me damn tired...tmr goin to kite flyin...haa...got back my CSAS...kaoz..sucks..haa....failed....haa...dieded man..must jia you le...just realise i actually love my 2 dogs alot...haa...they r so damn damn cute.....hmm...e rain really make me feel like slpin man..haa....wah..i just realise.....TP pple are all very very kiasu....they all rush to go sign up for jap man..haa..so kiasu..dun think i will get it la....sianzddeed....

haha.......i just realise..wat happen last time was all just an illusion...its just over with a click of ur fingers..haa....damn..this sucks....

miss u..real bad

2004-08-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

damn....was a long day today.....haiz...feel like cryin nw..haa...eyes wet wet de...i also dunno why....keep thinkin about stuff.......damn...why did u leave....?..haiz..saded man....fail OC....wTF......sucks....den all my test did badly....all my teachers were disapoointed in me..sorry guys..cause i failed OC den cause u all nt to get e project..im really sorry...dennis..i may ignore u nw...or tolk to u less....but think it willbe better..always tolkin and seein each other will have many conflicts de......

i try so hard to forget u..i try so many things....but it dun work......wat can i do.....i do everythin...i think of u....haiz....this sucks......we cld still be friends ma..rite.....i feel like seein u....haiz....i wana tell ya..i always wanted to give ya a big big cookie hug...but i nv get e chance.....u always seems so far away...think its gona be a long time 2 get over u.if i cld ever.i guess i cant.cause u will always be in my heart.unless i can get selective memory lost.haa..sigh sigh..wonderin hw u doin nw.i nv said i wanted anythin when i said all those stuff to u..i just wana let u know...its been in me for so long...and i cant afford to keep it much longer....i really dun understand why u choose to leave.....and stuff.....will u ever come back....haiz....

my life....now....

2004-08-18T17:21:00.000+08:00

nw when i cld still think about e time we spend i shld cherish it rather than tryin nt to think about it.one day.when some1 new comes in.it will all be gone.so got to cherish it all nw.though will be sad.but aint gona matter.

just realise it took 8 yrs to bulid everythin and just 1 simple blog msg to ruin it all.haa..

once e fate was so strong...and nw.its all gone.

u just slip through my fingers like water.nv able to hold on to.

i will learn hw 2 let go.cause that makes u be happy.

all this fate.all this while.all this things that happen was just a big joke.

just realise my term test sucks.cause had no mood to study anythin.

just realise im broke till very jia lat.dunno hw i spend my money.

got to forget bout e past.let go of all my fears.and hack care bout e future.

got to study real hard nw.and study hard.

since so many things have happen.just will accept it and see where it will led me to.

dunno hw i will react when i see u with some1 else.but got to accept it la.

u will always be one of my closest friend.hope it will continue and we still do stuff like e past.

i promise to move on.u will nv hear me say i have any feelings for u anymore.cause its a promise i make to u.tat i will keep.and i will move on.

guess things between me n my friends aint that gd now man...think it kinda suck too..dunno wat can i do to improve it.shall see hw it goes

got to meet up with e pple i miss so much man..its been a long time since i last saw u guys...

yoyoo...haa..im back..i think...haa...

2004-08-17T22:55:00.000+08:00

hey hey....was real fine today man......haa........hope everyday can be like that...haa....hmm..today is my buddy ah bing birthday...happy birthday brother......damn..today was damn damn fun lo.....haa..we had fun..slack......went to eat ajisen.....haa..food was great....den went to play game...haa.....arcarde...damn..i really suck at time crisis...haaa....but nvm la..i shall train to be better....i came in 3rd for daytona k...dun play play hor...i sucked actually la...haa.....den we went to play CS....haa...was soooooooo fun...hahaha...i sucked at e start...e bloddy ger....stole all my frag...hahah.......but italy i top...hahah....went on a killin spree...was damn fun man...need to do it soon again k....hahaha...damn im tired....haa...think gona slp soon...haa...tk care blog.........nitte nite

ps.world peace pls.so sad when so many pple keep dyin
.happy birthday...!!!!!

time to go..

2004-08-16T18:52:00.000+08:00

when i read e stuff..i think about stuff..i think bout everythin....think theres nth i can do anymore...since u wan it to end it in this way...den i decided nt to sms u anymore.i break my promise.but it dosent matter.im smsin air.some1 that dun even reply.cant be bothered.pls dun think u r very brave or noble to let me go.u r just freakin stupid.since ya wana stop contactin me..den delete away e sms i send u.delete away my no.delete away my picture.throw away e letters.return me my necklance.i give up.totally.bye.

it SuitZzzzz

2004-08-15T21:20:00.000+08:00

翻着我们的照片想念若隐若现去年的冬天我们笑得很甜看着你哭泣的脸对着我说再见来不及听见你已走得很远也许你已经放弃我也许已经很难回头我知道自己错过请再给我一个理由说你不爱我就算是我不懂能不能原谅我请不要把分手当作你的请求我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口请你回头我会陪你一直走到最后就算没有结果我也能够随我知道你的痛是我给的承诺你说给过我纵容沉默是因为包容如果要走请你记得我如果难过请你忘了我
this song really suit me alot now man....haiz.....sadeded......

hmm..another day

2004-08-15T21:08:00.000+08:00

wah seh..so fast end of holidays...so many things happen man..haa...aint wana think about it le..was all so sad...haa...i miss u ger.....where r u...i think im gona accept e fact that u r gone..haiz.....sianded....sch gona start le...think im gona study hard do loads of stuff..so i can forget about u.....e thing i find funny is.....why when guys treat gers like shit...they seems to love them more...but when gurs treat them so nice they will take it for granted and just ignore everythin....so shld guys treat their ger like shit or like a princess.?...haa.....some1 pls tell me...haa...hmmm.....sucks man...sch startin...i hope can ger that freakin project..den i willbe so damn busy.....den can dun think but anythin le..haa...hmmm...i aint know wat to do anymore.today kinda suck..woke up n got scolded all e way by my mum....loads of stuff happen..went to get HP prezzie...den came home for dinner..so fast man..1 day just finish le..haa..end up in bedok interchange and really reminds me of JAC lo..haa...sadeded........think gona end my blog entry for 2day le....hmm..its really tiring to pretend to be happy when ur really sad......serious...it may sound lame...but its really tiring.....will u ever be back.?...i'll just sit ard and see......tk care ger....

freakin late cant slpJAC

2004-08-15T02:48:00.001+08:00

its now freakin late lo..im damn damn damn tired..cant slp..just have e urge to read jac's blog again...i read through it once again.and was like so.....oh man............u dum girl....guilty for wat sia.so long ago le.let e past go.its all over man.i sms u like 10 millin times lo.u ask urself have i ever initate to sms u b4.n yet u dun reply n i keep sendin.im like..sianz.i dun really care bout e past cause its all over.and there r just memories.i dun really care bout e furture too.cause if 1 day i get knock down by a car i still lose u.if i lose u cause ur feeling fade i also lose u.it dun matter wat happen in e furture.pls understand wats important.today.!today.!not tmr.not yesterday.that is why i told u everythin.dun u understand.dun even think u will be readin this.kaoz.let ur ego go la.let all ur fears go.hmmm....and ur not harry porter.....u no need go like *ahem Ahem.she is juli.and so be it.whu e fuck care about her existance anymore.she freakin hurt u so bad and still have e cheek to ask u come back to her.wat e fuck is wrong with her.insane? u can continue avoid me la.but hw long can u avoid.why dun just meet and tolk things out lo.e more u avoid e worst things become.cant be lovers still friends rite.why must avoid.i dun even understand lo.and enough with e shit that u hurt me n stuff la.r u crazy not.tellin u all e stuff is not to let u feel guilty lo.doin so much stuff also not suppose to make u feel gulity lo.when u do smt for some1.u dun need to have a purpose.this is e reason why u give.u dun expect somethin in return. dunno u read this anot la.but at least send me an sms la.why dun just sit down n tolk stuff out lo.we know each other for so long and so well..really is a pity to let ya go this way lo.if things will turn out this way i wld nt have said a thing to u lo.just send me an sms when u read this la.tk care la u silly ger.

my MistakE

2004-08-14T18:31:00.000+08:00

hey blog.i was readin the book i bought 'love is letting go of fear'.it is like a book that was fated for me to pick up lo.i went to a bookshop and just pick it up.guess wat it was e last book and it was hidden at a corner and i saw it man.den i read e introduction and it said things like'this book will somehow find u.when u r down.when u cant let go.its just such a concindence.'i cant belive it man.it really tells me loads of things.although im just half way through,i just realise loads of things and wana share with every1.haa...hmm....firstly im damn damn damn wrong.i always bother about the past.fearin that bad things will happen again.hence,this really hinder my perception of the future.and hence make me a very sad person presently.first example is about love.i was hurt by mandy in e past.treat her so nice and stuff.did so much for her and in e end got hurt by her so bad too.i was so afraid that it will happen again that i decided to give up on love and dun love any1 anymore.so till today i dun think i have really found some1 i like or wat.this is because i been havin a mindset that a realtionship sucks etc etc.all e bad stuff la.den i worry for e furture.if i get into a realtionship i will get hurt again.hence i dun wan.i got a phobia.i was so negative about things.i have to change it.need to forget e past.dun bother about wat will happen in e future as im not a forturne teller.and just careabout e present.cherish those whu are in my life now.dun wana neglect them.sorry bros.i have been in a bad mood cause of jac stuff and was really very rude when i tolk.i aint mean it...sorry..hope u guys understand.. think i shld just accept e fact that she wana get out of my life and continue with it.i dun need to sit here n hope she come back.or freakin predict all those stuff..haa..i was such a fool.whu noes e furture.just play now la...haa...when sch term starts again.shld really work hard man and study hard and play hard.if any ger come into my life just see if e feelings is right and just go for it la.shld not just sit her and wait and be sad and cry about stuff that is already over.i choose to be sad for like e past 3 days and i was so not me.even i know i love her loads,but i also know that she cant love me too.so i got to let her go ya.i know we have loads of memories together and miss out on loads of chances.i hope we can make up for lost time but i dun think possible la.cause we aint gona be together ya.i was always thinkin about e stuff we cld go.go play ball.roller blade.swimmin.play badminton.go jB have seafood.shoppin.chattin.clubbin.so many things la.but like i said.dun bother about e furture cause it might or might not happen.maybe one day we will be back tobether whu noes.but i just noes that today.it aint possbile.hope we cld have supper again like old times ya.it was loads of fun.although u dun wana be in a realtionship with me.its okay.we cld still be friends ma.den we can do e stuff.like before.u remember?.haa.i know ya so well and u know me well too.we could be best friends ya.just wana tell ya that when ya down or need some1 to tolk to.i will be there.dun worry.haa...hmmm...now i got to practise to not to worry abbout e past anymore.like i always fail in sec sch.got thrash by sin kee.got hurt by mandy.got hurt by my best friends ah wei.got cheated by steve.etc etc.dun have to worry about wat is gona happen in e furture like goin to suck in bball again.goin to get hurt again and stuff la.just cherish now.go bladin with my bros.if free meet up with my other friends too.go eat as much as i wan.go sch study hard.etc etc la.dun need to worry if jac is coming back or be sad cause i have lost her.cause it will be too painful.wat is meant to be is meant to be.jac if we r really fated.den we will be together.if not now will be future la k.or nt for now we could be jie mei.best friends.dun think about e furture or past.just think about now k.haa.....i hope by lettin go of my fear i wil love again.wish me luck...hohoz...god bless all my pals...heh heh.....

bloG again...

2004-08-14T18:02:00.000+08:00

Sianz..sianz sian sian sian....just got back frm mallacca...hai.....go there to think about stuff..listenined my mp3 all e way there n bac...so damn fan....wtf is wrong....haiz...i also dunno...go there buy things eat eat eat and eat lo..nth much..sianz....nw just came back..dun feel like stayin home....whole day keep thinkin about jac jac jac jac jac...kaoz..ding dong liao la.....i wana get selective memory lost....haa....sianz..........bought a book..haa..hope can read it and feel better......think when sch start i wld feel better ba...nw e feeling sucks..haa...omg...dunno wat my results will be too..think it will suck man.....dieded...think update u later tonight la..no mood...

another day

2004-08-13T00:35:00.000+08:00

boo.!!woke up darn early today...11.40.on my hp and saw an sms.spring up and turn on e com.saw e stuff that was written and was like......*deep sigh....nvm la..i dunno wat to do or wat to say.i cant think of anythin i could do...nth could be done.its allur choice..last time when i dun do a shit..we end up together.but now when i do everythin..haa..i lose u...even as a friend....haa....wats wrong with me...sigh sigh...went to eat seoul garden till cant walk..was damn fun..haa...eat n eat n eat..first time i eat so much ice cream in my life..when i was eating i will just sit and stare into space...haa..thinkin wat went wrong...haa..hw fated it was and hw did it end up like that.i got no ans...0...!!haaiz.....denwent to watch a freakin stupid movie....cat women..wtf....sucks big tim man....haa..got scolded by some bitch cause i was smsin during e movie..kaoz...end up he left...haa..toopid bitch.......haa.....when i finish it was damn late le lo..had to rush home..haa...or nummy will kill me...haven been home for darn long..haa....damn...i miz ya so much and all i could do is listen to that freakin song i hate so much..............i reflect on all e stuff that happen to us n i cant belive that it all ended this way...it sucks..really sucks...this is call fated...guess got to get slap in e face and wake up man...sigh sigh......tmr have tto go sch...might be goin away for a few days.i dunno.see how la..haiz....

ps.girl why do this to u n me.why dun just continue to be friends.?

this msg is to jac.

2004-08-11T23:14:00.000+08:00

hmm..i realy dun understand wat is love about...i really dunno...i dun know why people get bf and gf for.....but i just guess that...its is to know each other better...spend more time with each other....be there for each other and search to see if its really e right one.....i dunno why..i just cant help to tell..and feel...hw i wish i can dun go through this phrase and just be married.....hmmm...guess ya got to go through loads of stuff to know whu is the right one...

hey girl.although we had a long long chat that day....but i guess things are still not clear.i dunno wat u wan..neither do i know wat i wan.i dunno if i wan a realtionship or not.i really dunno.guess u dunno too.at that time when we were together.wat have we learn.wat went wrong e last time that can make this time right>?.u know?.i dunno.hmm.i guess ur just as confuse as me.cause maybe we love our live now and r contented yeah?..haa...if we ever get to another realtionship,we got to be sure eh.be sure of wat we wan this time.we have really gone through alot.if we get together again.it will be much more.u know.its gona be hard.can u face it?.hw i wish its just so simple.just dun care about anythin and just get married.dun wana have a bf or gf.it really sucks.but think its a phrase that leads to marriage.make u real sure whu u want?.rite?.maybe if we nv try again,we might still continue guessin.i know if we ever get into a realtionship nw.i cant promise u e sky and e moon and all those crap pple say.but i only can tell u about my love.its REAL. if we nv get into a realtionship, its really okay.i will learn to let u go and accept some1 new.if we gona wait for us to be ready.think we shld search for some1 else in e meantime.if its really mean to be.its mean to be.

dun worry.u will nv lose me.u r too gd a friend that i wish to lose.i will always be there for u.i aint tryin to ask u to get into a realtionship.but when ur ready and stuff.pls tell me.its really ok if u dun wan and stuff.i just wana tell ya i will search for some1 while waitin for ya.and btw.i aint juliana.she dunno hw to treat a princess propely.i do.

yyoyo...im so tired

2004-08-10T21:06:00.000+08:00

yoyo blog...im so tired...i have insufficeint slp man..and i kana bully by my mum..i haven sleep well for 2 daY.and tmr i am goin to sentosa..damn..today blade fall down lo..bloddy guy...cant see me ar..i so tall lei..kaoz...haa...hmmm.....tmr shall be a fun day..but i need all e eneryg i can get...haa...last nite i miss ya so much lo...nv even reply my sms...next time wana slp cannot send an sms first meh,...i thought wat sia...den slp till almost 7...whu can be more pig den u lo......haa...nvm la...next time dun sms ya le..save bill.worry less.haa.......ben dan..somemore today i so tired treat me like shit.....ai yo...sigh sigh...haa..i go bathe le la..must slp earlier or not tmr will dieded lo..haa.....had a damn fun day at dennis hse lo..haa..damn funny..esp e dance...haa.......sigh sigh...hope can do it again...soon...!!